This is my first time ever blogging, so forgive me if I am uninteresting or if you just plain don’t like me.
Here’s a little bit that you may need to know in order to understand the rants that are sure to follow:
I am Jessica. 22 years old. I will be graduating college in December, and I am happier than I could ever imagine. I have a wonderful other half. We have been together five years and I know that we will have the rest of our lives together. We are high school sweethearts and he is truly the love of my life. We are going to be embarking on our IVF journey soon, and I figured that this is a way to get things off my chest and maybe, just maybe, shed some light on a subject that many people may try to sugarcoat.
This is how everything has gone down so far:
November 2010: We stopped using any form of contraceptive in hopes that we would get pregnant naturally.
September 2012: We realized that after 3 false positives (which are rare, but unfortunately they happen) we weren’t going to get pregnant naturally. I went to the doctor with my fears, and by the end of the month, I had received the diagnosis that I was infertile. I always had irregular periods, and they apparently impacted me negatively. I found out that I am not ovulating on my own and would need help to do so.
December 2012: After much coaxing from me, Chris (my OH) decided to go have a sperm count done. **Note: this is going to get a little detailed…if you are weirded out by facts, skip to March 2013** I had been telling Chris for months that I thought I was not the sole problem. When he would ejaculate, the result would be a clear and thin liquid. It was literally like a spray bottle of water. There was no thickness, and it led me to believe that he may not be producing sperm. He went to have his first of two semen analyses done, and sure enough, there was a zero sperm count. It wasn’t even that they were finding immobile sperm; there were NONE. Nada. Zip. Zilch.
March 2013: He goes for his second semen analysis. This was required by the doctor to ensure that there wasn’t a mistake in the processing of information. And for the second time, we received a zero sperm result. This is where we decided to see a fertility doctor. We scheduled an appointment with Dr. Hill and he took a look at his junk. After many x-rays and ultrasounds, and some unfortunate probing on his behalf, the results were that there was not a blockage, but the doctors found a growth on his prostate. By the end of March, we found out that, FORTUNATELY, it wasn’t anything to worry about. Unfortunately, that meant that there was another problem. More doctors. More bills.
May 2013: We find out the awful news, after more searching and a few oddly-inserted cameras, that Chris is missing his vas defrens (the tube that leads from the scrotum and carries the sperm out). We didn’t know what that meant as far as us getting pregnant, and we found out that it meant a decision of a lifetime: either we undergo IVF (as it is the only way we can naturally carry a child) or we consider adoption. This is getting scary. On top of the missing tube, we also found out that in many of the cases where a man is born without that tube, he is also born without…..wait for it….. HIS LEFT KIDNEY. So now, he’s just found out after 23 years that he’s missing a kidney. And to top it off, there’s a wonderfully obvious spot on his right kidney. Is it cancerous? Well, the doctors informed us that we would find out in four months.
Which brings us to today. Dear lord. His appointment to find out whether or not the spot is cancerous was on the 10. I was in shambles worrying about him and (as my nerdy inner-self would) I was researching the options for kidney transplants and if we would be compatible. We don’t find out the results until the 19, but good lord am I nervous. He doesn’t want to do anything about the IVF until he gets the results and they come back negative for cancer. He seems to be all cool about the results, but what’s worrying him is the IVF. In order for us to do it, they are going to have to cut him open to retrieve the sperm since he can’t naturally ejaculate them. He’s not feeling that idea. My RE, Dr. Nichols, seems to think that I may also have PCOS. We are waiting for those results as well.
I’m worried that, if the IVF doesn’t take the first go-round, that he won’t want to go through it again to try a second time. Here’s hoping that the cancer and PCOS results come back good, and that we can do our first IVF transfer in December! (or sooner)
Oh, and if you have any suggestions as to what you might like to see in the blog or what might make this thing more interesting for you, I’m ALWAYS open for suggestion!